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So would you still be my friend if I take pictures like this? ;)

Insya’Allah, soon. Maybe then Lupe Fiasco would notice me hehehehe :p

I miss you. I seriously do.. If only you don’t mind talking to me. Even if its just for a minute or two.

I shall blab about everything. Before that I feel like telling you people whoever you are, wait is there even any live human being reading this.. Anyway, I feel like telling you ten facts about me. It should start with this -

• I’m shy and I totally dislike the fact that I am shy. It makes me somehow unfriendly.
• I envy my brother. He has everything. Trust me, everything.
• I like food which means I like to eat, but under one condition, only with people who are really close to me or my family. Or else you won’t see me eating.
• I do care about what people think of me, sometimes it overwhelms me so bad that I literally would breakdown and lock myself in my bedroom.
• I like to sing. Somewhere deep inside, I wish I have the guts to sing in front of people.
• I like fashion related stuff but I don’t have the confidence to pull any outfit hence I dress a certain way so that people won’t talk about me.
• I do badmouth people before getting to know them. I hate myself for doing so. I really do. 
• I am immature.
• I get offended easily. I misunderstood what people are trying to tell me most of the time.
• I think I am emotionally unstable. Wait does that even count as a fact?

So I guess that’s about it, for now. From what I’ve written you guys would probably think twice about getting to know me right? I don’t blame you though. If I were to be in your shoes, I would have second thoughts as well. I guess now I don’t care. Friends come and go. I know this for sure because there’s a number of people I used to be close with but lets just say we ended up being complete strangers. So now, I just don’t care. ( Saying I don’t care practically means I do care right?) I’ve got a few that I can really count on and my family. 

I am going to change. I mustn’t be shy, I should be able to speak up my opinions and be more confident. I should not remain timid, I am going to rule the world! Now I’m just exaggerating. Well I tell you one thing, no more badmouthing for sure. Anything related to self confidence and shit, I shall work on that perhaps later but soon I think. 

I’ve actually lost the blogging in me. I try to reblog and stuffs but I get real bored of doing so ended up not posting anything and just browsing, trying to keep myself up. I’ve been so focus on trying to not be the black sheep of the family that I’ve turned into some freak who thinks that playing word search is a fun way of releasing stress or even sleeping is a fun way of releasing stress. So whenever there’s an opportunity to surf the net I actually don’t mind spending only 10-15 mins, that is so not normal for me I mean for anyone who knows me knows that once I’m on, its hard to get me off. Now that actually sound a little odd. 

It’s been nice updating a little, I shall write again when I feel like it, whenever that is I suppose. 

Good bye. Good night.

I am going to write a long post about you. Yes you. Just wait for it.

(via mothachucker)

(via makemestfu)

Finally made a decision and I am indeed satisfied. What I got myself into was really unhealthy. It exhausts me everyday and now, I am free. Free from arguing all the time and answering questions I don’t feel like answering. I’ve sorted things out, our color theme for this year’s Raya, birthday plans and vacation plans. Yes that was how serious I was. I guess I got really tired and I just gave up on you. Moving on, I shall not care about this relationship thingy for the time being and just study my ass off. The highlight for today : 98 for my History hahahahaha he’s gonna be so proud of me :)

listening to one republic’s come home makes me feel so fucking sick. seriously after all  the fights and arguments you can’t even be a little patient and hold the fuck on seriously I am not sad it is your loss but seriously you’re fucking sick man sick

All I need is some time off from you, just to sort things out but you just had to fuck me over and end things with me